I was able to sit with friends tonight and collectively worship God through song, scripture, and prayer. As people prayed tonight I wrote down bits and pieces of what was said and wrote this prayer.




I sit here. I here their voices lift to you and I hear your words whisper back to me. You consume my all. You are undeniable. Your power is more powerful. Your reason better than reasoning. You are my reason. My cause. My explanation. Justify my life lived out for you.

Songs unrecognizable but a love that is so familiar to me. Loneliness creeps in and I feel as though You do not fill it yet you consume its every crevice. Continue doing so. I beg you. When I kick and scream watch me with love knowing I will soon run to you and fall at your feet. My tears will be your bath. Cleansed by my sorrow, gratitude, and recognition of your existence I cry out to you. I weep with tears that wash your feet swept away by my hair as you ask others if they even see me at all. "Do you see this woman?" My debt is large and my wage is small. Your love for me is large...you are my call. You see my worth…you see theirs. I'm worth dying for and die you did. I'm chosen and choose me you did.

Give us a distaste of this world. Burden me so that I have no other choice but to chase after you. Burden my heart so that what breaks your heart...breaks mine. Break me. Break them. They will know us by how we love each other…how I love you. How I love them. Turn this city upside down so that the only direction to look is up…up towards you. That we would look into your eyes and know that it is you. Raw gospel pointing back to you.

Trouble and hardship. Persecution and famine. Nakedness. Danger. Sword. No. Not EVEN in these things will we be separated from the love of God. God break the man made boundaries and teach us to unite as one. That the goal is you. The goal is claiming people for Christ. People need life that only Jesus can bring. Only you. Only you can bring. You plead for me. I'm already paid in full as you continue to plead with me to stop paying for something already bought and paid for.